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I am a simple gal. With a beautiful dream, not knowing if all will come true. Many desires deep within my heart(hopefully I can blog about) not knowing where to go. But because I am a very outspoken & bold I think I managed to climb up certain stairs in my life, which brought light into my life... And now I am progressing =) Well I wouldn't really say simple as have been pampered since young. So ya... I only update my blog once in a blue moon, like a thriller story you know? Excited to know what is in the climax.. LOL... Anyway, hope you enjoy reading my blog! MUAAAAHHH!!!

1.11.09

TORN.

WELL MY HEART IS NOW TORN INTO PIECES. I DON'T KNOW WHY U HAVE TO SAY SUCH THINGS. I AIN'T PERFECT THAT I KNOW. BUT WHY MUST U PULL MY PAST IN OUR ARGUEMENT? WHEN U PROMISED NEVA TO TALK ABT IT AGAIN? IT IS VERY HURTING & I AM SLASHED INTO PIECES. WHAT MORE DO U WANT FROM ME? I AM SIMPLY BROKEN BY THE WORDS WHICH CAME OUT FROM YOUR HEART.

HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO FUCKING MOVE ON IF YOU KEEP PULLING MY PAST? YOU WERE THE ONE WHO TOLD ME TO RECOVER FROM IT AND MOVE ON. AND NOW YOU ARE THE ONE TALKING ABOUT IT? THANK YOU VERY MUCH MY DEAR SWEET HEART.

EVEN BEFORE WE BECOME MR & MRS YOU START PULLING MY PAST. HOW MUCH EASIER WILL IT BE FOR YOU TO PULL MY PAST & SAY SUCH THINGS TO ME AGAIN WHEN WE ARE LIVING TOGETHER? YOU PROMISED!!! FUCK THE WORD PROMISE LA. WHAT RESPECT HAS THE WORD GOT NOW THAT YOU HAVE SAID SUCH THINGS? YOU KNOW I AM A FUCKING EMOTIONAL & WEAK HEARTED PERSON & YET U SAY SUCH THINGS & STILL CAN JUSTIFY YOUR WORDS?

YES I AGREE I HAVE EGO BUT MY FUCKING EGO IS NOT AS BAD AS YOURS! GET THAT IN YOUR THICK FUCKING SKULL. SLEEPLESS NIGHTS? WHO CARES. IT AIN'T GONNA AFFECT U IN ANYWAY. FUCK LA! IF I WAS TO STAND INFRONT OF YOU, YOU WOULD HAVE BROKEN MY FACE? HA. THERE IS NO LIFE IN ME. YOU BREAK MY FACE AFTER THAT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS GONNA SUFFER IN GUILT NOT ME. I WILL COME & STAND INFRONT OF YOUR FACE TODAY. AND I WILL SEE IF YOU ARE GONNA DO IT.

WHY???? I DUNO WHY???? I JUST FEEL LIKE BREAKING EVERYTHING INFRONT OF ME. SO MUCH OF ANGER & HURT. EVEN DADDY KNEW SOMETHING WAS NOT RIGHT YTD WITH ME. BUT YOU? NEVER UNDERSTOOD. TALK SO MUCH ABOUT UNDERSTANDING LOVE! FUCK THIS UNDERSTANDING BULLSHIT. IT NEVER HAVE HAPPENED & IT NEVER WILL. PEOPLE HAVE TO UNDERSTAND YOU. BUT YOU? HA. BULLSHIT LA.

TALK ABOUT MY PAST? COMPARE OUR LOVE WITH MY PAST? HOW DUMB? WHY NOT COMPARE IN WITH THE PRESENT? WHY MUST IT BE THE PAST? YEA I KNOW I LEFT YOU BUT U SAID & UNDERSTOOD WHY. BUT NOW? SERIOUSLY THANK YOU VERY MUCH. THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR TRUSTING YOU. IT SUCKS WHEN SOMEONE I LOVE & I THOUGHT WAS UNDERSTANDING ME WERE TO PULL MY PAST.

I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR HOW TO REACT. I AM JUST TOO HURT & BROKEN.

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